I imagined falling into poetry month like falling into a soft marshmallow bed of comfort and delight. Wrong.
I seem to have anticipated so much that I stifled creativity. The first prompt of the month is from a tale of two cities, It was the best of times, it was the worst of times. And for me, it was both. I wanted to write. I leaped out of bed in excitement over starting this April journey. And as I sat in front of the prompt, I died. Nothing came to me, even after reading the 30 or so poems of others before me this morning.
Eventually, I remembered an old poem from my verse novel that seemed to be both great joy, and sudden devastation. So I adapted that poem to start this journey. Here is today’s entry.
CALLIGRAPHY
My grandmother moves my puppet hand
in vertical strokes,
like rows of bamboo on a mountainside,
straight and strong—
then sweeps the brush in horizontals
like a rabbit racing towards its hole at dusk.
Now you, Grandma says,
leaving me to practice
my calligraphy.
But my hand no longer remembers
without her strings.
It wiggles and wobbles across the paper
as if my bones were jelly.
My cat leaps onto the table,
perhaps to give me comfort
or more likely, to guarantee she doesn’t miss out
on new opportunities.
She washes her fur,
head bobbing as if keeping beat
to her favorite song.
My hand follows her rhythm
rising and falling across the page.
And suddenly,
my world is in harmony.
My lines are perfect.
Until she stretches.
Midnight cascades across the rice paper.
I grab fistfuls of tissues
to mop up the spreading ink
but blackness explodes
onto everything I touch.
The cat disappears
as quickly as she arrived,
and I am left alone
with my nightmare.